A letter to Norman from Nicaragua Alum, Dorian

Dorian is 17 years old and participated in Nicaragua’s Lacrosse the Nations programs for 3 consecutive years through high school, namely one of LtN’s highest performing student-athletes within LtN’s Scholar Program - a program wherein 94% of scholarship recipients improved their overall GPA’s from the year prior.

Upon Dorian’s graduation from high school and from LtN’s lacrosse and scholar programs, Dorian was accepted to university in the city of Managua. In his first year in college, Dorian felt the need to reflect on his gratitude and learnings with Country Director, Norman.

Here is his note:

“I am currently in the first year of university, at the National University of Engineering, studying Computer Engineering. Many things have changed since I enrolled in lacrosse, from my personal self to my style and quality of life, things in which Lacrosse was a great help to me, all the teachings I have received with you have helped me grow as a person. Not to mention the great financial help that I got thanks to the scholarship program, my family was positively affected thanks to this great support. I can't forget to talk about the love I received, Lacrosse always treats all students with an exceptional love, a love that feels special to each one of us. And just like you all have given me your care, I have great appreciation and a huge space in my heart or you, the coaches, and my teammates - such is the case that I cannot imagine a life in which I was not in your organization.

“If I had the opportunity to choose again if I want to enter LtN, I would always say yes, every time they asked me. I love you all, each and every one of the members of this great project.

”Lacrosse never discriminated against me, never judged me, never singled me out. Lacrosse taught me that I can be myself, but much better. Lacrosse taught me that we all have a great person inside, but it only takes a little push, a little help to bring out our talent and skills.

“Lacrosse always saw something in me, even when I couldn't see it myself. You helped me see that spark that we all have, you helped me bring it out better than anyone. Lacrosse taught me respect, Lacrosse taught me discretion, Lacrosse taught me camaraderie, Lacrosse taught me to leave everything out there, Lacrosse taught me to apologize and communicate, Lacrosse taught me that I can always give more of myself.

“But the most important thing that Lacrosse taught me was that I was never alone, despite everything that happened, I always knew that I had a helping hand in any of the LtN members, you never turned your back on me, and that's what I most appreciation from you.

“You, my coaches, and my teammates were always willing to support me in whatever I needed, and that has no price. The scholarship program was undoubtedly one of the greatest aid that I have received from you, the mere fact that you paid for all the school supplies was a support that had a great positive impact on me and even on my family. For 3 consecutive years you paid for those expenses, for 3 years you supported my education, and I have made the most of it and I promise that I will not disappoint you in that regard.

“I cannot do more than thank you for everything that you have done for me and even for my family, I would not be where I am I would not be who I am if it had not been for you, I offer you infinite thanks, thousands of thanks for everything, you are one one of the best things that have happened in my entire life, thank you very much.”

— Dorian, 17, LtN Club Hope Alum

Louie’s Olympic-Sized Personal Success

I met Louie a year and a half ago when I first moved to Bocas. A hot-headed, sensitive and expressive twelve-year-old, Louie has always been historically hard on himself during practice. He is often volatile, his actions and his words wrought with negativity and frustration. This is particularly so when he messes up or when things go wrong in a drill or a scrimmage. And, as we know, this happens and will continue to happen as we work on our lacrosse skills… So, naturally the LtN Olympics were going to be an interesting skills test for Louie. 

Quick rewind: Louie is an only child who started attending a school with his peers at the end of last year (up until then he was homeschooled on Isla Bastimentos where his family lives). One result of this change is that he is adjusting to interacting with other kids on a much more regular basis and in more structured environments than just free after-school time. Our practices fall under both of these situations. In effect, our programs push him to think, act and respond perhaps in different, more appropriate and controlled ways (and more often) than he is used to.

To offer an example, when Louie first started playing lacrosse, he had a tendency to throw his stick on the ground in anger whenever he’d mess up. As time has passed, Louie has managed to find other ways to control his attitude and emotions during lacrosse. A lot of this assistance has come from his teammates. Last week’s event of Tiro al Blanco was a great example of this personal and communal growth. 

As Louie began the event, he soon became angry with himself because he wasn’t hitting the targets. Frustration showed in his actions and in his vocal expressions. After missing the first two cones, he took a breath and listened to the positive encouragement of his teammates. They were there building him up, not tearing him down like he was doing to himself inside his head. Then, we saw it: his composure changed. After pausing and listening to his team, Louie successfully hit the last two targets. This situation gave me the perfect segue to remind the LtN Panama team about positivity - particularly positive self-talk. 

We discussed how one’s attitude (frustration and calmness) can severely impact one’s performance. For this reason, we need to remain calm and let mistakes roll off our backs when we find ourselves getting worked up. It was wonderful to see Louie learning from his teammates and acknowledging good practices for improving his performance, and his self-confidence. 

After the discussion, Louie admitted that he was incredibly upset with himself in the beginning of the Tiro al Blanco event. But, he recognized that his frustration was not going to help him succeed. By listening to his teammates and by acknowledging how his attitude can affect his performance, Louie changed his outcome. He ended the event on a much better note! Now, that’s what a gold-medal day looks and feels like. 

-Maria McDonough, Program Director

When a Program Director Doesn't Direct Programs

Uncertain. Tumultuous. Standstill. Liberating. Whatever adjective is your go-to descriptor for the current climate brought on by COVID-19’s entry into our lives in mid-March I can certainly relate to it. Let me share with you a little bit of why that is...

When the coronavirus first made its appearance in the United States, I was happily sitting on a beach in Panama without a care in the world, loving every aspect of my life as LtN’s Panama Program Director. When COVID-19 hit the US, I was forced into considering one of the most challenging, heart-wrenching moral debates that I have encountered thus far in my life: to stay in Panama or to return to my US home and family. At that point, all I could think was that Bocas had become my home, its community my family and my work with LtN so much more than just “work.”

Two weeks later, Panama announced that it would be closing its borders to all commercial travel. So, armed with a return flight to Bocas at the end of May, I found myself on a plane headed back stateside. 

When I landed, I was united with my family along with a flood of unexpected and unknown. Not only had COVID-19 sent me away from the people and the programs that I had dedicated myself to for nearly a year, it had altered my role within LtN as well. How could I be an influential member of our team if I couldn’t run our programs in Panama?

Over the past four and a half months (and a cancelled May return flight), I have had the privilege of finding a very profound answer to this question… well several answers to be exact. 

On the macro-level, I have had the opportunity to dig into more facets of Lacrosse the Nations with tasks that hadn’t previously fallen within my PD purview. On the micro-level, I have created professional development tools for our international coaches, dived into the nitty gritty of donor relations and data entry, and learned what really lies behind managing websites and analyzing their traffic. I have helped evaluate what matters most in our programs and established with coworkers how we can best prioritize our goals.

I have found myself connecting more with our mission and the people that tirelessly work to achieve it than I had while I was on the ground. 

Taking a step back now, the adjectives I would use to describe “quarantimes” for me are surprising and enlightening. The virus that I thought had completely upended a years’ worth of hard work and uprooted me from a life full of freedom, self-discovery and gratitude on an island in Panama has actually opened my eyes to more confidence, joy and connection than I had ever imagined. For that, I am grateful.

-Maria McDonough, Program Director